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Name: Raffy Piamonte
Country: Hungary
Birthday: 11/21/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: God, family, friends, music, dancing, and late night talks on the phone. Jamie from "The Real World: San Diego" is cute too =).
Expertise: singing out of tune and dancing in the shower without falling =]
Occupation: Legal
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
AIM:  THEonEnonlyRAffy
Member Since:
4/7/2003
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| This song hit the spot at the right time. Time to play on repeat for the next week.
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"Everything You Want"
Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why
But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return
[Chorus]
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say
[Chorus]
But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for
Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return
[Chorus]
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know
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I served my time. | | |
| Life is getting better.
The best part about being at a low is knowing you can only go up. It's nice to know that things can only get better, but only if you allow it and make it happen.
As far as my life goes?
Today is my sister's 28th birthday. She is amazing. Happy birthday to a beautiful person who deserves only the best.
I biked 15 miles the other day with one of my best friends, Alan. I never do stuff like this, but I needed to stay busy. We could have biked more, but his brother Albert had to go to work. Either way, it was great catching up with him. Not to mention we were able to get hooked up with free Pat & Oscars. Nice. I'm pretty sure I'm going to keep biking on the daily.
For 7 months, I had ZERO interviews, 3 call-backs. Within the past three weeks, I've landed 3 interviews and 5 great leads to other jobs. When it rains, it pours. I had a dry spell for so long. This type of news couldn't have come at a better time. Hopefully, good things come from these leads.
Speaking of unemployment, because I don't have work, I have a lot of time and energy to invest in salvaging relationships, in particular, friendships. I will take advantage of this because I understand than when you get busy, its hard to put in the work. In the meantime, I don't mind putting in the extra effort to make friendships last and grow. I might as well take advantage of the time while I have it.
I went to church for the first time in months the other day. It wasn't some divine intervention, but it was nice to talk to the big guy upstairs for a little bit. It's been quite some time and I think I needed it.
I recently did the "Alzheimer's Memory Walk" with John Kim and Cory the other weekend. What a great day. Now I'm looking to do the "Run for the Hungry" this Thanksgiving. If you are interested, let me know.
Maxt Out is this Sunday. It's probably going to be the last time I dance for a while. Dancing has been fun, but it's time for a new chapter in my life.
Speaking of dancing, I saw the new CADC team the other day. And I nearly cried.
I also cried while watching "New York, I Love You." In particular, it was the old couple section. I pray that I grow old in love with someone.
I have been saying "I love you" more to my friends and family. And I mean it, every time.
I read a familiar quote the other day. An oldie but a goodie. I will leave you with it as I go about life outside the house:
"Keep looking up. God is looking down."
Take care. | | |
| Simply put, I think I just miss the fact that she was my best friend.
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| They say the time it takes to get over someone is half the time of the relationship.
December, here I come.
I fell in love for the first time in my life. I loved the falling part when it came to "falling in love". It was great. There was a sense of liberation and freedom that came with falling. Just being able to trust and love someone that deeply brought this incredible high in my life...almost like I was indestructible.
There was a long period of time where I would ask my friends what it was like...to be in love. They would always answer "you can't really explain it, it just...is." And now that I've gone through a love experience, it's quite true. I could never map out for anyone the extent of my feelings or my emotions. But the only thing I could ever measure was the amount of happiness I had every time someone asked me about love. And that happiness exceed infinity.
It sounds cheesy, and somewhat idealistic, but I love thinking in idealistic ways. Only the greatest people to ever live thought in an idealistic way, otherwise they would have only accomplished realistic achievements. And for me, I fell in love...to me, that's an idealistic accomplishment. A lot of people turn away from love, because they don't believe it exists, its just some false feeling we convince ourselves of having in order to feel better. I was once that person that didn't believe.
I have been proven wrong, over and over and over again. And I'm so glad of it.
Yes, I did fall in love. And yes, I did hit the ground eventually, after falling for so long. I was not indestructible, and I was hurt...I am still hurt, and I'm trying hard to remain strong. But at the same time, I was able to trust and love someone with all my heart for the first time in my life. I was able to allow myself to be vulnerable to idealistic ways of love. I was able to reach a new found sense of happiness. I was able to let go.
Although the love is gone, the hope still remains. Hope for a better life, hope for better opportunities, hope for a better love. God, thank you for blessing me with an opportunity to gain courage, to gain strength, and better yet, to gain a better sense of what love is. I truly believe in love now, it really does exist.
As much as it may be hard to admit this, thank YOU for making me a believer. I hope we get the bright future we promised for each other, but for now, our paths have taken different directions. I can only hope they may cross later on, in whatever fashion or form that may be.
Until December...
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| I am finally letting go of something that doesn't exist anymore.
It's a process that I've gone through many times before, but obviously, its different every time. I've always tried hanging to every lasting memory, every hug, every text, every kiss, but the truth is, you can't grab on to something that isn't there.
I finally realized that, and now I'm letting go and letting God.
I have no idea what is in store for me. I have no idea who or what is going to be in my future, and I have no idea what I want to do next. Will Smith said it best when he told a story about building a brick wall. It's not about building the wall and looking at the objective as building the wall. Rather, its about laying one brick as perfectly and as best as you can. Eventually, you will get a brick wall.
Now, I'm not really building any walls in a literal or metaphorical sense, but I'm starting to realize that life is all about taking steps, and having a goal. But that goal is rarely instant, and when its instant, its only a goal that needs to be achieved in order for a bigger goal to eventually become achieved.
My life a month ago was completely different that the life I have now. A month ago, I was in love, employed, dancing, and living away from home. Now, I'm struggling to believe in the concept of love again, unemployed, no longer dancing, and living back in SD. Amidst all this though, I've come to rediscover the things that I've always been blessed with but never took the time to acknowledge because other things were in the way. Now, I've come to appreciate family and friends that have always been there, not to mention a whole entire future ahead of me just waiting to be started.
My life a month ago...I'm thankful for. My life now...I'm thankful for. I am experiencing life at its best and its worst. If I didn't have one or the other, I would never know the difference. And that is what makes everything so beautiful. It's the ugly truth, but the truth is ultimately a beautiful thing.
Time to look forward. One brick at a time.
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